Oct. 21 2021 Angry Update

I am typing this paragraph at midnight the day this devlog releases and this is, hard to write. I haven't worked as much on the video game as I wanted to this week. I've been a depressed mess. Is that an excuse? I mean, sure, it's not, like, a moral sin to not be productive for two weeks. Maybe the game will need to be released later than the end of November I intended, but I don't feel like there's going to be any kind of outcry over that. Maybe telling you my thought process is a way of establishing a parasocial connection, certainly if I can't make a game I can at least be sympathetic about that fact. The reasons why I've been depressed are numerous and complicated and personal, so all I can really say here is "I haven't brushed my teeth in two days, please don't also hold this game thing over me."

I have gotten a bit done over the past week though, and that's worth celebrating. Let's talk about that!

In terms of direct progress, I wrote a fair amount of dialogue for if you try to talk to the rabbit on the next level, I've given one (1) of the enemies a cool "Avenge Me" mechanic where if an ally dies they're stronger by 6 levels for the rest of the fight, and I've got a bodged-together way of allowing enemies to flee if they get low enough health. I'm realizing as I type this that this all comes off as window-dressing, and yeah it is, but it's fun window dressing isn't it! As stated in my previous devlog, this level is one I have trouble finding confidence in. I've decided as of today to submit the current build to my playtesters so they can rip it apart and tell me where I went wrong. Hopefully enough changes can be made that the version of this level you see is one I'm comfortable with!

At this point writing this I'm getting angry at myself for not having more to show. At the very least, doing playtesting has gotten me thinking about how I can make this work. After checking with someone just now, who told me they can see what I'm going for and it just needs more "there," I think I should be able to at least push out something tolerable. Uuuuuugh.

-Angie Nyx